How You Feel Other Things

So, because of watching Ellen DeGeneres, I've had to explode at the thought of me feeling something that "isn't really what I'm thinking."  However, the issue is the issue.  I mean, there's an issue, and the issue certainly isn't the way I juggle what I think I feel and feeling in some way it's real but it's not, not some thing you can solve.  It's because of other people.  It's an issue, and it's just a way to think and feel pleasure.  Pleasure doesn't seem to be real other than technical things, for me.  I mean, there's more to it then that.  I'm not sure exactly what the idea is.