Not Being From Florida

Why are Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres getting uppity about my mom not being from Florida?

How I'm Feeling

My head feels puffed up, and my nose is itchy and filled with pressure of air.  I keep sniffling.  The pimple in my left ear has really gone to my head, but it isn't as bad as it can be.  It's from wearing ear plugs, which I usually just wear to sleep now and in the living area when my family is sleeping because I can hear my dad snoring often.  I still manage to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," but I can still hear him when he snores if I scoot.  Up.  I used to watch stuff there more, and he used to snore more.  It's even a fuzzy recollect to realize what I watched.  I don't remember where I heard the snoring most.  So, I sneezed and took a cough drop.  If I could walk to CVS, I could get some medicine, some light medicine..

Dream

Oh no, I got the hiccups and don't remember.  I had to get up and have some water and it stopped like it usually always does these days except maybe once or twice more recently.

I forgot the good parts but kinda remember standing up doing something like at a school singing.  Yes, I think it involved Ellen DeGeneres.  I think it was more impersonal, on the whole.

Problem

I found Ellen DeGeneres out.  She's being mean to me all the time because she knows I complained about the area I moved to near where she's from.  I was miserable and getting fat because my mom had us stop walking.  I was probably really mad when I found out, too.  Even when I thought maybe we were actually just moving to New Orleans.

Problem

What's with all the insulting messages from Ellen DeGeneres about how she might be more successful yet jealous?  I'm getting the message, that she probably acts like she didn't give, like that I go online for her and I mean nothing.  It might be a real message, but it isn't really funny and probably isn't true and probably no one cares.

Furious

I just watched a talk show host, Bethenny Frankel, on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and I feel furious, she's from NYC and Fort Lauderdale I think as a kid.  I mean, I just feel like I was shaken.  I feel kinda like blown away, sorta rattled, like there's a force echoing.  Bethenny Frankel is cool.  She is ½ Jewish.

Caught Up

So, I caught up on Ellen DeGeneres.  I was sick on Halloween kinda, not technically, and on Thanksgiving I think something happened to the recordings twice.  I don't really feel like going back and probably shouldn't now, though could.  I liked going back and seeing her sing.  I'm not sure what to do now, eat some crackers, go to sleep, do some Pilates.  I still feel my stomach from before so maybe shouldn't.  I could watch a movie.  Hey, Les Misérables is out.

"Busy Havin' a Wonderful Christmas Time"

Let me get this out.  Think of Helena Bonham Carter and Nell Burton with Billy Ray(mond) Burton all comfortable with Tim Burton, for Christmas, Nell just had her birthday.

Why is everyone else comfortable and deserve what they get and get petted for racistly plotting shit against me like they're shit?  Ooh, Ellen, that's gotta hurt.

Problem

Look, this is a fact.  I'm listening to torturous noises for nothing all day for the past ½ year supposedly by Kate Bush and in conjunction with Ellen DeGeneres.  Think of the bloodthirsty suggestion of her race.  Ellen DeGeneres wouldn't accept this fact.  She thinks, look on the bright side.

A Reminder

I read Tim Burton's parents are from Canada, that he's Canadian, rather, and that Ellen DeGeneres's dad isn't from the US.  Where could he be from?  I guess she doesn't have to be attached to him.  He seems pretty white in the fam.

Oh, so, anyone with ancestry in Canada or Latin America means something.  It's like an outlying culture.  Also, watch out for Australians...

Maniac

So, why is Tim flaring around hatred or his minions echo it?  I'm sure he does.  He's not a polite guy from California.  Ooh, wow, so I'm a piece of shit from Florida.  I didn't think so.  Are you just jealous I was created on the beach?  Tim Burton just is being so clumsy like everything has to be shit because most people were shit.  He clean flung the world.  So, what, are we waiting to introduce me to someone rooted in Florida?  I know my aunt's husband's parents moved to Miami from Cleveland.  I saw his X.  She's Latino but bleached her hair.  His family is nice.  I know Ginny Kopf moved here in her early 20s.  Johnny Depp isn't from California.  Kentucky?  That's like Tennessee.  I saw all of Miley Cyrus, well, all that was released on DVD, couldn't find anything else, though I guess I could have tried iTunes.  Or thought maybe more episodes had to exist on YouTube.  Ginny Kopf is from the San Fransisco area.  I made friends sorta with a boy, clung to him and he came over after choir I think and maybe for other reasons, and he's from Cinncinati.  I'm not fond of that area.  I had hoped he was from California.  So, I was 7 and 8 when I knew him.  Cinncinati is actually by Kentucky.  I just let that thought click, as well.  So, then, I have a cousin, too.  Her dad's last name is Italian, I think.  My dad's sisters are supposedly disobedient socially.  I just couldn't get into the meat, like if she had like a person in her life from the South.  So, anything below Pennsylvania is the South now.  It's also sorta about how good you are, really, because that was kinda the question to begin with.  I saw Elle Fanning, anyway, she moved to L.A. at 1.  She has Georgia culture, and it's really scary.  I guess she just wants to be racist.  I have friends who moved at 7|8 and 9.  Well, I moved around, myself, but I connected it all like a good girl like you were supposed to.  ':{  Be positive.  Don't ask questions.  Why would I have roots in Pennsylvania?  I know my mom lived there a little, but it was a good experience.  Just not with the relatives.  :p  It's really not.  I don't act like that and everyone doesn't.  I get the feeling people have cornered me and not wanted me to go smoothly through things.  They think that's what I'm solely bound to experience outside the bounds of racism.  It's funny you think that I'm subject to the crap I experienced of racism and to be hated for my hair color because not everyone is.  I'm sorta stripped of my accomplishments for being Asian, though I don't like being Asian and believe it is stupid to think I am or should..

So, what, are you "connected" to your parents?  Well, I was raised by my mom and then like philosophized with my dad on life.  IS THAT A PROBLEM?  I can want what I want.  You won't find shit out.  You think I shouldn't be allowed to even have ties to Pennsylvania nor their ways.

It seems because I'm Asian people are like coming up to me and then leaving me, mad.  Like I have to be careful.  Um, isn't that my dad's racism?

Hey, stop telling me I'm the product of my parents.  I don't want shit.  What did you learn?  TIM BURTON.  That's what's important.  You don't condone people, lower them.  Like some maniac.  You can pretend what you want or be shit, but I can still rant all I want.  So, what, you won't even like admit that you're supposed to deal with your fans, accordingly, and just want to suggest that you don't really like me when I never said you had to?

Why is it okay to go in my room and influence me to be shit?  You must be crazy.  I told you to stop.  What should I do?  I can still have people talk to me in my room.  You're wasting my time, and stop telling me I have to work.  You must be a worthless case.

No, Ellen DeGeneres did not write this because if she did she'd have to say so.  SAY SO.  ;D  Okay, baby.

So, what, Tim doesn't have a brain?  He seems cute online.  I just am getting the idea I'm a nigger and he'll find that maybe other people know more than me when they don't.  Maybe, I'm special.  See, that's a sensitive topic.  I know that.  I'm from Florida.  I know people from Florida are like that, but I am not 100% versed in all of it.

So, what, did this person make me not as cool, thinking I'm white and not like so slick and crappy?  Did my dad also do that?  I bet the world did it.

"Where You're 'From'"

It's too bad, in a way, I lived in the New Orleans area.

I guess Tim Burton wants to say I'm not from there because I know his culture.  It seems I know it pretty well.  He can't accept that you can know both.  Anyway, Ellen DeGeneres "knows" the L.A. culture.

I wonder if anyone else was innocent and ran into trouble because of him.  I guess you'd forget that anyone would have to relate to me.  Hm, it's just kinda like well I'm not really the only person from there.  I thought me living there I could connect with people like Ginny Kopf.

So, something else interesting was after the magic I wanted to go back to New Orleans, from up north during the hurricane, so I could get in that ballet program.  It is funny that, I didn't quit college.  I just didn't want to lose my record.  I think my parents changed my life.  I guess I had fun up north, but my life was an experiment.  Sometimes, I experienced some things, maybe at least 2 I can remember or 3 magic things that probably "disturbed" me.  So, noises started to bother me after I stopped going to class.  Well, I couldn't read and didn't know what to do, but I forgot it and didn't care.  People acted like my life was an experiment, and it was to help my communication.  So, anyway, it's like I want attention, but this has gotten too far.

Why would Tim Burton be scared of Helena Bonham Carter and not my mom?

So, I am having a hard time feeling better.  I think I'm still young and learning and haven't reached my full potential.  People get mad to let it out when they find I'm interesting and won't treat me like I'm white.  D';

People want my situation to say it's wrong.  I'm getting suggestions from people from England who have immersed with other cultures, for some reason, it seems.  Heh.  I mean, every American had the opportunity to be European.  They just stopped and got mad at non-Caucasians who wanted to be European in the U.S.  It's a big issue.  I guess Asian-Americans like Pat Suzuki are an issue.  You can't tell they're Asian.  That's bad because it doesn't seem European nor very white.  I think that I incorporate it in an aesthetic way.  I get upset when people are like supposedly affected by problems I have, like if that happens it's like the end.  My dad acts like he's better, but he doesn't act like being European matters.  He didn't try to make me Asian.  He tried to make me ugly.  My mom took good care of me.  I don't know why she couldn't make me better after seeing people like him.  I'm not 100% sure that this is 100% sure, but my dad sure skirts around, himself.

So, I've been sorta cornered and put online and lost a lot of things.  I don't really just float the boat with people from England thinking they're from where I'm from.  I mean, they're not even from there.  ;D  They won't even talk to me.  So what.  I can get attention.  Nanny nanny boo boo.  Why don't I just *beep* them?  I don't know how to torture people.  I don't want to become something I'm not.

SO TIM BURTON WHY DO YOU DISILLUSION PEOPLE?  YOU NEVER DO ANYTHING AND TREAT ME LIKE A NIGGER AND WE'RE ALL DYING.  I DON'T HAVE TO BE JOHNNY DEPP TO BE HAPPY.  JEALOUS?  I WONDER WHAT WILL HAPPEN IF YOUR DAUGHTER LOSES INTEREST.  I enjoy watching you, but I don't want to be told I don't know about the culture of where I'm from, like it's suggestive.  I'm sure there are kinks, but I'm pretty sure it's a good thing to be attentive.  I'm not saying something I'm not, just what I'm saying.  I'm not interested in being ugly or Chinese or non-white.  I don't really want to know who is.

So, I wonder why in Orlando people act like they're so nice to me but TREAT ME LIKE A NIGGER should I say GODDAMN YOU TO HELL YOU WORTHLESS PIECES OF *BEEP*

WHY WON'T THESE NOISES STOP.  WHY WON'T ANYONE LISTEN TO ME.  WHAT SHOULD I DO KILL MYSELF?  CALL THE POLICE?  BUT YOU'LL FOLLOW ME.

Maybe, you don't want to include me, but blare the fact, Tim Burton "is already there," he's famous, he might be white, he married someone with significant Jewish heritage.  Well, he's not married.  I wonder what that means.  He sure made a project of something touchy.

So, does Tim Burton think I'm a fake and that my life had no potential and that I'm subject to the problems of my past?  Because others seem to have problems?  So?  What?  Do I just suffer?  I'm not even a person.

No, I don't like you hurting nicer people.  GO TO HELL *BEEP*

TIM BURTON WHY ARE YOU FLARING AROUND LIKE A MADMAN.  PEOPLE QUIT IT I CAN STILL BE A FAVORITE OF HIM AND GET THIS MAD.  *BEEP* GO TO HELL!

Oh, wow, let's see what this means for Ellen DeGeneres.  She's acted funnily since Kate Bush singing at the Olympics, a halfbreed of English and Irish who makes a hissy of it for others supposedly and she seems to not be able to deny that people are made to believe this, now..  Hm.  I will not accept this past with my dad overreacting to the n word thing and then saying it's because I did poorly in school.  Those are my grades.  He ruined my life or whoever put me under the experiment.  I wasn't helped in the right way.  It can't be impossible to succeed.  I'm 26.  I'm still treated like a kid.  I still like to feel like a kid myself.

Onto Non-Famous People

So, is Ellen DeGeneres onto people in the world?  There's a big divide since Tim Burton between famous people and non-famous people.

So, what's so special about the internet?  People can talk to you?

Nothing wrong with her, but who else sorta draws your interest?

Getting Uppity

Why do people think I get like horny?  It must be characteristic to my age.  Ellen DeGeneres doesn't get like that, does she?  Do a lot of people, like give or take?  Is this a good thing, a learning process at a ripe age?

Early Boom

Ellen DeGeneres can't say I'm my dad because he's born in 1950. I will *beep* you all.

Sent via BlackBerry by AT&T

Things Adding Up

Wow, things add up.  I looked at a Tweet of Ellen DeGeneres, and she sees the same things I see coming from a certain kind of area of the country.

8h  Ellen DeGeneres ‏@TheEllenShow

Did you see the secret clue on my show today? I'll give you a hint. It rhymed with Blight Bopper Nettles. http://say.ly/udd4Qa2 

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TV Show Host and Cyber Media

So, Ellen DeGeneres won?  She's obsessed with iPhones|cellphones, showing pictures of texting, and now with video-ing herself when she goes out?  Okay, as long as you're not near where you live.

I was busy, from the area where she's from, had moved there when I was younger, and I didn't think to text to a blog, so much.  I didn't really leave the house all that much since a certain time since.  Also, Blackberry, which is what I have, doesn't have a Blogger app.  So, what I do is I now publish my posts from my mobile blog.  I saved the page, have to click to download it, then I go to another page and upload it, then I take off the option to comment (in most all cases, all so far,) and then I publish them.  There's a text in the post that says it was sent by so and so, AT&T and maybe Blackberry..  So, I also have to say I'm leaving when I'm home, now, started doing it on my cell phone.  Each time I leave, I post a link to that blog.  Wait, why?  Because I might exceed the limit of, around, 50 posts.

Let me get this, she's into texting and Tweeting..  F.Y.I., at 1 point, I used Twitter for fun when I went out.  I was never like a big Twitter person, but people like that my last name sounds like a bear and I am someone who is now active online with a long time of experience, considerably considering time itself.  I think I have 1 friend with a locked Twitter account.  So, about video-ing herself rather than texting, she didn't even post videos of her casually talking.  That makes for not much flexibility.  I know I, at 1 point, put separate videos of me not dressed up, "without makeup," though I used to not wear makeup so I'd look like a child or a boy.

So, there aren't an infinite amount of words.  I guess you could use Google Translate or learn Swedish.  You could use words like poetry, but that's not as infinite as the possibilities of Paint.  I like Paint because you can make figures that aren't so detailed and don't draw so much foreign attention.  Well, you'd notice things like what you eat, when you wake up, what you dream about.  There are lots of social issues.  For instance, you know that something will happen to Twitter, 1 post.  However, you know you can write long texts of thoughts incorporating a rather large plethora of activity.  I know I come on, and there isn't much to do.  I know there are lots of words out there that can be woven in.  I know there are more elaborate ways of speaking.  That's for certain, something I used to do a lot, like in school and e-mail and when I was writing in a notebook, which "wasn't very good."  Still, what more do I have, like that, now?  I took off the real world.  Something must have happened.  I thought it was not going to school.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres thinks that you should have to like say you thought about how a non-Asian looked Asian, you should look like that, too.  Just because you felt a feeling that wasn't like you were totally sad.  That's not really normal, and I don't know if it's genuine.  I wonder if that means Asians aren't from Asia millions or thousands of years ago..  The earliest record I've come across of humans was in Spain, 12 million years ago, African 7 million.  I had thought Spain was an old country, but I read it, too.  You know, it seemed old, but it didn't technically register in my brain.

She's just following racist inklings of uptight, obese, older men, toward their non-white daughters|children.  She's mad she's older but excited to hurt you in front of Early Boom.  She's not pretending, she does it a lot.  It might seem like something everyone does, but it's not.  Also, most people probably have Jewish last names and you don't know from which sides.  The reason I'm not sure I care if she's Irish is because I know there are mixed English.

Problems

Why does Ellen DeGeneres think everything has to be positive, like, on your part, that critical things get in the way?  Like, let's see, what did I just say?  I don't even remember what I said that was something that other people have said.  It was something specific that was suggested.

I just got another message, someone I know was knocked out like me, just because I talk about that stuff on my blog because people are afraid of offending people like my dad, who is, not in a related way necessarily in most aspects, afraid of "offending.." his mom.

Problem

Update, so, Ellen DeGeneres is antsy about the n word thing.  *Beep*  So is my dad.  So is everyone who knows me.  What does that say?  Peeing in your pants over Johnny Johnny Johnny Depp?